How do I know what matters? When everything matters to everyone for whom it matters?

A lot of times the simple magical things of the Christian story get expedited so they can be used for a certain purpose.
The magical perplexing nature of the person that has been promised since the dawn of time, the thought that the act of betrayal for that long awaited drum roll of humanity, would be done with a kiss....
How can that be a punctuated sentence on the way to explaining “the gospel.”
No need to stop here kids.
Just keep 'em moving along
like cattle
so they can get to the part where they are saved by hearing about Jesus.
I guess we don't mind losing the value of life, in the service of our blind unrelenting perspective.


I think when my sunday school teacher taught me about Old Testament Saul there was laced in the telling a measure of resentment for the character of Saul. Maybe she saw his pride and arrogance, and maybe it reminded her at some level of her blindness she had to her own pride. Match that with the fragrant beautiful mystifying David, who could of farted and all the Christians would of clapped and said, “even that fart is a man after God’s own heart.” Then, you have it, a perfect duality. One mans evil dark soul, easy to cast down and judge, and the wonderful pure heart that changes everyone by merely only existing.
I guess I'm resentful, I want my existing to change everyone.
Maybe my resentment is the fact that my own pure heart didn’t change people like David’s did...
And I was left...
alone, to have a cold and bitter heart, just like Saul.
well, at least I’m better then the Sunday school teacher
at least I know
I'm blind


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