A single broken hope

Maybe a lie is incomplete in its offering 
Even if it’s a thin packaging to wake someone up to the truth inside of it.
We lie to ourselves all day long,
Tricking ourselves
Manipulating our own minds and emotions
To keep up the walls that remind us we are safe
Our safest walls are indeed our deepest prisons.
We will regret the wall we put up that stops us from living life as free as we hope to.
We believe we are free and threaten those who get close to revealing its not true.

Knots tied all over
Restricting our minds 
Until the muscles we once could use
Have now atrophied,
And in their weakened state we smile believing we have a higher degree of confidence in life
Confidence is a breath away from our eyes opening to the outside world which we choose to ignore.
Ignorance is bliss.
Confidence is at times a hope misplaced.
We think our shell we have created
Will sustain us forever
If you grow too much within that shell
You will soon find yourself lost in a prison of your own design.
Be wary
For the horror of a trapped mind is endlessly worse than the fear of living alive and awake.
Sometimes the pain is too much to bear,
Run
But choose to run
Don’t let your mind conjure a safe place to hide in

For our safest walls are our most unrelenting prison

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